Thursday, September 5, 2013

The Reinvention of Self

I am constantly searching for context. A difficult task when you keep starting over. The funny thing is, I have adapted pretty well to the unfamiliar- that it has become what is familiar. I live in a self invented world in the context of a real world surrounded by a new world and immersed in a challenging situation that provides a great deal of inspiration but in many ways becomes unreal. Am I making myself clear? I didn't think so. 
Someone recently made a comment on my Facebook page that made me smile; "I don't know how you still do this." was her comment to me regarding me starting a new year in a new school. How does one continue to find motivation to do whatever they do?

It's an interesting question and one I ask myself quite often.  The motivation is the method. That by discovery; whether it is within the three year old that I am teaching or in my own daily rhythm,  there will always be something to learn or cherish or notice or be grateful for. That is how I still do this. In gratitude  you can always find motivation because without it all you will find is a void. 

I am here to say that I have been tired lately and grumpy and less then joyful and I want to apologize to anyone who may have caught me in one of those moments. But here's the good news, not once did I let those feelings consume me. Not once did I say "I give up" ( maybe I thought it) but the point is I remembered I am very grateful for all that life has given me and in that split second of self doubt and self pity I pushed through, spun around, took a deep breath and went on with the reinvention.



2 comments:

  1. So this is why I am so grateful that you are my friend...you always try to see the positive in any situation and you never give up no matter how hard the task. You always inspire me to keep learning, to be grateful for what I have and to keep on trying. Thanks, toots!

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  2. Your welcome and I'd say the same to you friend!

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